Friday, 24 December 2010

I will be lost without you

I wouldn't be here, when you come to me
sometimes I will survive, until you touch me
yes, may be someday you will walk through my pains
you will know how many sleepless nights I spent

When you walk through em
just remember me, remember my face
and think
You will be my true love
You will be my ain true love

inspired by Sting - you will be my ain true love
cold mountain

Monday, 22 November 2010

Time waits for no one

It has been almost 3 months, since I posted the last blog note. Time has passed through different life priorities. Like Hurts said, time is waiting for no one. (I am listening to that song now :))

Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Officially done!

with the submission of thesis, my postgrad course has officially ended. when I look back at the last year, it glittering with amazing life experiences. I learned a wikipedia full of things about the life, it was truly an amazing experience, a life journey.

If I recall it, I met amazing people from so called different cultures and evolved life time friendships. It was a year full of ups and downs, bad days and good days..however I truly enjoyed those experiences. According to my cousin, bad and good days are like two sides of the same coin.

The people around you always making an impact on you, influence the way you are thinking. Therefore we need to choose the right people to live with. Otherwise it is hard to find the happiness of life.

Sunday, 19 September 2010

I love you

It's 4:02 am and last day of my dissertation. I am feeling quite happy about the dissertation and my skill set. 2000 words a day wasn't a piece of cake. In addition to that I had many barriers. It wasn't easy to complete a dissertation in such a short time period when you have to dedicate 4 days of week for other commitments. commitments like working at Tesco, tutorials with X-MR.

I really like to introduce myself as a confident and optimistic guy. damn you Kasun..I love you man. feeling sleepy and need to save some energy for Today. I mean after 6 hours of sleep.

Sunday, 5 September 2010

Finally I went live!!

I released the output of my dissertation Today. Anyway I am running an over-scheduled project at the moment. On the other hand, I am feeling happy coz of this partial achievement. I know, still I have to go a long way to reach my destination. I am confident about myself and wanna play it cool till the end. I am feeling like life is changing drastically for last one year. I can't even laugh with some of my so called jerk friends, because I am not in that league anymore. I just wanna enjoy the journey of life.

Wednesday, 25 August 2010

Rhythm of the rain falling

The Summer rain gives me strange feelings. It's amazing how the nature can influence the way we feel. Especially when I stuck with my dissertation and looking paths to overcome the tensions life build inside me. May be I was too busy to think about the nature or my self esteem limits my imaginations. perhaps I am tired from the race of life.

However I always loved a song related to rain from my teen age. Basically the lyricist of this song is amazingly connecting the rain and the sad romance. It was well backed from the calmness of the acoustic music as well as the brilliant voices by Leslie Lewis and Hariharan. (Colonial Cousins) Here is the lyrics of the song.

Indian Rain - Colonial Cousins

Rain Clouds in the sky, I Don't know why
They make me blue, when I'm thinking of you
Maybe they want to cry, As I walk on by
Hiding my tears, in a world of good byes

Love during summer rain, Causes no pain
Cause I'm looking back, at you once again
Memories crowding my mind, You're one of a kind
Life with out love, I'm helpless I'm dying

Rain drops and dance, strange kind of romance
I don't know why (whether) to cry out loud, But I'm feeling fine
Watch the rhythm of the rain falling down

Rain drops and dance, strange kind of romance
I don't know why (whether) to cry out loud, But I'm feeling fine
Watch the rythm of the rain falling down

Rain falling around, Its just the sound
I like to here, when my hearts feeling down

Try to smile once again, As they slash in my window pain
I quiet like that, I don't mind
I've got no complaint

Rain drops and dance, strange kind of romance
I don't know why (whether) to cry out loud, But I'm feeling fine
Watch the rhythm of the rain falling down


Tuesday, 24 August 2010

I am becoming a matured radicalist

During my teenhood, I thought fall in love as a magic and believe in movie type love story in life. Some says love is a miserable lie while others as a binding of souls and hearts of two individuals. I have swing my opinion over both ends time to time. It's not because I loved/ hated somebody , just I liked that feeling. If somebody presumed that I need serious self-help, congrats..you are living in the real life at the moment. :)

If you waste few brains cells in this matter, you'll understand at some point, a relationship between two beings as a state of mutual understand. more specifically, both parties generate a neutral venue or a comfort zone to live. In here, both need the good human qualities like patience, understandability, flexibility, adaptability and so on. Both have to sacrifice some things in order to build a good relationship. In here the concept like living together can be practical than arranged marriages. In a living relationship, both individuals can easily work together to build a common ground. If this process is not gonna work, the legally unbound couple can be move on easily than married.

However I don't think that a romantic relationship is a must-have element in life. Some people live happily without one. But I believe everyone needs a passion based on love to live a better life. That's the compassion or the discovery of yourself. According to Buddhist perspective, compassion comes when you discover you lose yourself in some way. through art, through understanding, through knowledge, knowing that you have no boundary, knowing your interconnectedness with other humans. According to Bob Thruman, a budhist scholar (http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/bob_thurman_says_we_can_be_buddhas.html) when we are relieved from the I, me, my, mine (selfishness) chain of life, we feels ourselves differently.


Sunday, 22 August 2010

Why Culture?

I came through this amazing article about the culture, it leaves something to think. (http://tiny.cc/cn8ji)

Sometimes I have tried to argue with my self about the existence of cultures and how the role of a culture affect one's mindset. First of all, I should admit that it is one of the sensible subject to talk in public. Culture, Religion, Race and Ethnicity are the most sensitive topics among people. However as a anti-fan of so called culture, I will bring out my view.

So what exactly a culture? According to my view, it's a creation of society to specify how unique and pure it is relative to other. Basically so called western cultures emphasise on independence and free way of living while so called oriental cultures (Asian) designed on more people oriented way. Those are the highest level breakdown and extreme ends (x and y) in the axis of culture. However it is more complicated and solely depend on one's mindset. You cannot take out a person from cultural domain and extract his/her view point as a culture.

Conclusion
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I cannot stand with controls and measurements imposed by cultures but I can enjoy the diversification of cultures and the colours those bring to life. I thought it's better to end this blog entry by stating the following paragraph of the above mentioned article.

"Our task isn’t to change or destroy any of that though – because that would simply be the reaction of the ego. What we can do is simply observe it, because through the act of seeing comes awareness and then understanding. And from there we have an entirely new foundation upon which to build our lives."



Saturday, 21 August 2010

Me Myself and Blogging

I don't like to introduce me as a good blogger, cause of number of obvious things.

Basically the concept of blogging confuses me from long time. If we assume the idea of a blog is to expose, in what earth you can have a privacy. if I cannot purely express my self why should I keep a blog. anyone can see the dilemma of a blog. It's not only a paradox limited to blogs, all other social media are carrying the issue up to some extend. But on the other hand, we can apply simple rule of thumb to this and patch things up. Here it comes.... Equilibrium no way it's better to call it as balance. :) balancing the openness and closeness by using so called measures. like life.

Secondly I wasn't well aware about myself, my feelings and life purpose. (still in the learning curve) Most of the times I wanted think from perspectives of others and adjust my view. But in the last couple of years, I was trying to be much as independent as possible. I have succeeded in that, my closest friends are the living proofs. :)

More than anything, I am a lazy guy. writing a blog wasn't for the persons like me. ;) let's see, anyhow I wanna continue this.

Saturday, 13 February 2010

One day to go - day for love

Another day to Valentine's day. The world is still looking for Love and Peace, in other words seems like love is already left from this place. The word 'Love' should be the most lovable word in any language, any culture.